When I kept silence, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. I acknowledged my sin to you. I didn't hide my iniquity. I said, I will confess my transgressions to Yahweh, and you forgave the iniquity of my sin. Selah.
Psalm 32:3, 5 (WEB)
When I Kept Silence
This magazine publishes silence daily. Today it makes an exception. Psalm 32 knows two kinds of silence, and only one of them heals. The other it describes exactly: when I kept silence, my bones wasted away. Not "I was sad." Bones. Something unsaid, carried day and night, shows up in the body before it shows up in the mind; the heat of summer, the psalm says, and anyone who has ever carried a lie, or a debt, or an apology they owed, knows what weather it means.
Then one sentence, without preparation: I acknowledged it to you. No program of correction, no deadline. He said it out loud to the one who already knew, and the bones came back. Between the two halves of the psalm stands the word this magazine is named after. Selah. Pause. Let it settle. As if the psalmist needed a moment before he could believe it had been that easy.
So today's pause is not about keeping quiet. It is about the one sentence you are carrying, which you could say in three seconds if you wanted to. Nobody has to hear it except the one who already knows it. The rest is silence, this time the right kind.
Which sentence are you carrying unsaid today?
I know you know. I'm telling you anyway.